Monday, 12 August 2013

Happiness day in my life

Alhamdulillah, finally, I managed to get my PhD. I received an email from the transcript dept that they had sent my transcript to my home address. I was so happy. Four years ago, I told my self, what were good reasons to give to my family and friends if I failed to get the PhD? Two years ago, I asked my self, do I really fail?
Only now I realize that you can say anything before you try. Even, doing something late is better than not doing it. Give yourself a chance!

Corrections after the oral exam

After the oral exam, I was asked to wait outside the meeting room for almost 15 minutes. I could say that it was one of the most scariest moments of my life. My close friends at UC, kak Manja, Saba, Abang Dino, Muhammad and Saima were waiting for the results as well. Muhammad brought some chocolate to cheer me up, but I didn't feel like eating anything.

After 15 minutes, Prof. Tim invited me to the meeting room again to announce the result. When he announced, "congratulations! You have passed your PhD with minor corrections", I felt like I was not there. I could not say anything. I praised to Allah for his mercy. I really wished my husband was there with me. I felt like crying because I could not finish this PhD without his support.

Everyone congratulated me for passing the exam. I thought after the oral exam, everything was over, but minor corrections really made me unhappy. Prof. Tim asked me how long do I need to submit the revised version of the thesis. I said, it's up to you!. I really had nothing to say. I believed my mind was not there.

Prof. Tim asked, is it possible to submit within 3 months? I said, yes, of course.

It had been 2 months after the oral exam, I still did not do anything. I had no mood. My husband again asked me, how's the thesis. I just ignored his question. Actually, I was asked to justify why the number of sample I used in my experiments was enough. To justify the reason, I had to run my experiments again. As I was staying in Malaysia, of course it was hard to run the program using my prev machine in New Zealand. I really had no idea how I was going to give the reasons. I tried to contact my supervisor, but he was away in Japan. So I thought, it's better not to interrupt him and just do nothing until I was ready!

When it was almost two and half months, I really had no choice except to install my program on a new server at my university dept in Malaysia. Alhamdulillah, I managed to run the program and I obtained the expected results. Within a week, I managed to write down everything and sent my revised thesis for the professional proofreading. I could not believe, within 10 days, everything was settled. I sent the revised thesis to my supervisor, but he was not feeling well, so he could not check the thesis. Lastly, when it was almost the due date, I submitted the thesis to my examiner - Prof. Eades to check. Of course I gave the summary of corrections that I had made plus which one was the newly inserted pages etc. Within 2 days, I received a response from Prof. Eades that everything was good and he had sent a message to the PG office that he excepted the amendments that I had made. What a relief!

I learn something from this experiences Never, never and never underestimate your strengths. You should try first asap before it's too late. Avoid procrastinating as you might miss many opportunity ahead.

Oral exam

Ist May 2013 - my oral exam date. A week before the exam, I received examiners comments about the thesis. Alhamdulillah, Prof. Hirate seemed happy with the thesis. He made a comment of some typo errors only. On the other hand, I received many comments from Prof. Eades. Not only the experimental results I obtained, but also mathematical equations in the thesis. Of course both of them are professors of Mathematics and they know about my area, but it is hard to satisfy many people.

During my oral exam, only Prof. Eades was available. I was asked to give an open public seminar beforehand. Prof. Eades was the one who asked so many questions during the seminar. Alhamdulillah, my close friends told me that the presentation was very good and they had no doubt that I would pass the oral exam.

Sunday, 2 December 2012

Thesis submission

I have submitted my thesis last Friday. Everyone says that I should be happy. I don't know how to worry less and be happy. I am so worried. I just feel very uncomfortable.

A few months back when I was struggling with my thesis writing, I always hoped that I could do so many things right after submitting my thesis. I really wanted to go to a nice place to rest, learn to cook something special to my family and many more. But now, I feel so scared. Am I going to fail in my Phd?